First let me thank you for your love and prayers. I couldn't get through the days without them. My mom told me today in Calgary- First Nazarene (my home church) had the entire congregation praying for me-- the thought of that makes me cry.
Well its day 4 of my hospital stay and originally it was thought i would be going home tomorrow, that has changed and we are not sure when i get out of here. I am trying to remind myself that here is the best place for me- but at times its hard...
Anyway- here's is something for you to think about-- early this morning i looked to see my great-great Gramma (Maude Shuart) standing at the end of my bed- even though i couldn't see her face i knew it was her.. was it a dream-- a vision-- does it matter- i know she was here and it was oddly comforting..
My doctor came by again- she has been coming in every day and today you could tell she was getting frustrated as the usual medications and solutions for combating my Hyperemesis Gravidarum are not working - not a surprise for me "the usual" usually doesn't work on me anyway. Although i am glad she is still hopeful and looking for other options. She told me i am stable now- which is better than when i came in, and although i am still losing weight at least its has slowed down. Now i have some of the "fake weight" the weight from all the IV fluids being pumped into me constantly.. My mom said that's what she has "fake weight" and wanted to know how she can lose weight in her sleep like i am able to- she says she gains weight in her sleep! My doctor also told me i have to train my body to eat food again- rather than eating me since that is what it is doing- literally. It has gone for so long without food, it doesn't know what to do with it and is breaking me down little by little.. She told me to eat whatever i crave- tonight i had mashed potatoes-- great going down-- not so good coming up. But it did stay down for 10 minutes!!
Shamus is off to Calgary this week for a course with CBS so its just my mom and Toryn here. Toryn has been amazing- even though his world has been turned upside down he is still wonderful. He has a smile on his face, saying hi to everyone he meets- what a little charmer! he really is the best little boy in the world- or as his Gramma says 'hes perfect!"
Thanks again everyone for the love, prayers, support, texts and emails- and to my doctor and nurses who are doing everything they can for "baby bear" and mommy!
The Neesons
Sunday, June 6, 2010
Friday, June 4, 2010
Sucking it up.
Well the ice chips didn't work so now I am trying small pieces of pedialight Popsicles in a lovely wild berry flavor. This might sound bad but I hope they taste just as good coming up as they do going down.
At this point in time my options are very limited as to what I can do now so maybe it's time to just suck it up and look for the small positives in my day to day. Like last night, I had a dream about going on a huge shopping spree with and ex's credit card. It was so much fun and I got a lot of stuff, it wasn't real but it is the closest thing to a shopping spree I will have in a long time.
Things to be careful of. Don't get up to fast especially if you are slightly dehydrated because then you pass out. The worst part is not actually passing out, it's the half an hour of people staring at you to make sure you are ok. I love you but really I'm ok, no need to stare.
We are leaving tomorrow for Calgary to spend time with my family for a week. Going to church on Sunday morning is going to be fun since there are at least 6-7 doctors or nurses there waiting to see how I'm doing. Which to be honest I am really thankful for, although I hope I don't pass out in front of them especially in church. That's a lot of stares.
Have a great weekend everyone and I will keep you all posted.
A.
At this point in time my options are very limited as to what I can do now so maybe it's time to just suck it up and look for the small positives in my day to day. Like last night, I had a dream about going on a huge shopping spree with and ex's credit card. It was so much fun and I got a lot of stuff, it wasn't real but it is the closest thing to a shopping spree I will have in a long time.
Things to be careful of. Don't get up to fast especially if you are slightly dehydrated because then you pass out. The worst part is not actually passing out, it's the half an hour of people staring at you to make sure you are ok. I love you but really I'm ok, no need to stare.
We are leaving tomorrow for Calgary to spend time with my family for a week. Going to church on Sunday morning is going to be fun since there are at least 6-7 doctors or nurses there waiting to see how I'm doing. Which to be honest I am really thankful for, although I hope I don't pass out in front of them especially in church. That's a lot of stares.
Have a great weekend everyone and I will keep you all posted.
A.
Thursday, June 3, 2010
So far....so bad.
Well everyone, I thought I would start this so people who are not living close to me could see how I was doing whenever they wanted.
You know all those "Joys" of pregnancy, the glow, the shiny hair, the cute little baby bump that everyone seems to get excited over. Well all those things seem to have passed over me. Currently I am 9 weeks and 5 days pregnant with a little boy/girl that my mom has lovingly nick named 'Baby Bear'. What a fitting name since he/she seems to be as strong as a bear and doing a number on my system.
As of Wednesday June 2ND I have dropped down 20lbs and my cute little baby bump that I had only 3 weeks ago is gone. As for keeping down food and liquids, this is something that I can only hope will return sometime in the near future. I have been in the emergency room twice now for dehydration and cramping in my stomach.
Just on a side note, if you are pregnant and having sever cramping in your stomach they really should not make you wait 4 hours just to see a doctor. And to the lovely friend of my husband Shamus who said, "Gee I hope she's not one of those women who miscarry in the waiting room." Really....not the right thing to say at that moment in time. Thanks
In the hospital they gave me fluids and a new drug to try called Zofran. Apparently this is suppose to be the strongest drug they can give and it will help with nausea. LIES!!! Just kidding, this probably does help with most women but Baby Bear is immune to this and all other drugs. Oh and just in case someone out there thinks they have the answer, let me tell you what I have tried first before you suggest anything. Small meals six or seven times a day, not eating and drinking at the same time, watermelon, cake, bread, soda crackers, baked chips, Popsicles, ginger ale, tea. I have even tried just a tsp of water every two hours and yet still I am throwing up.
There is a light here though. I got a call from my WONDERFUL OBGYN today who said, "Don't worry we haven't tried everything yet." For someone who is past the point of falling apart this was the best news that I have heard since finding out I was pregnant. She told me that all the signs to watch for in regards to Dehydration and that the next time I go to the hospital to have them call her personally. She also said there is a chance they may have to admit me just to get this under control but they would assess that when it came time. So for now the next thing we are going to try is just sucking on an ice chip to see if that will help.
I do want to thank everyone for all the support and prayers they have been giving me and my family. I really don't know what I would do if I didn't have my family, church family and friends to help. Even just asking if there is anything we need is a blessing so THANK YOU.
I will keep you posted on how things are going as I know there will be a huge celebration when that day finally comes when I can keep something down.
Gods blessings and love to all
A.
You know all those "Joys" of pregnancy, the glow, the shiny hair, the cute little baby bump that everyone seems to get excited over. Well all those things seem to have passed over me. Currently I am 9 weeks and 5 days pregnant with a little boy/girl that my mom has lovingly nick named 'Baby Bear'. What a fitting name since he/she seems to be as strong as a bear and doing a number on my system.
As of Wednesday June 2ND I have dropped down 20lbs and my cute little baby bump that I had only 3 weeks ago is gone. As for keeping down food and liquids, this is something that I can only hope will return sometime in the near future. I have been in the emergency room twice now for dehydration and cramping in my stomach.
Just on a side note, if you are pregnant and having sever cramping in your stomach they really should not make you wait 4 hours just to see a doctor. And to the lovely friend of my husband Shamus who said, "Gee I hope she's not one of those women who miscarry in the waiting room." Really....not the right thing to say at that moment in time. Thanks
In the hospital they gave me fluids and a new drug to try called Zofran. Apparently this is suppose to be the strongest drug they can give and it will help with nausea. LIES!!! Just kidding, this probably does help with most women but Baby Bear is immune to this and all other drugs. Oh and just in case someone out there thinks they have the answer, let me tell you what I have tried first before you suggest anything. Small meals six or seven times a day, not eating and drinking at the same time, watermelon, cake, bread, soda crackers, baked chips, Popsicles, ginger ale, tea. I have even tried just a tsp of water every two hours and yet still I am throwing up.
There is a light here though. I got a call from my WONDERFUL OBGYN today who said, "Don't worry we haven't tried everything yet." For someone who is past the point of falling apart this was the best news that I have heard since finding out I was pregnant. She told me that all the signs to watch for in regards to Dehydration and that the next time I go to the hospital to have them call her personally. She also said there is a chance they may have to admit me just to get this under control but they would assess that when it came time. So for now the next thing we are going to try is just sucking on an ice chip to see if that will help.
I do want to thank everyone for all the support and prayers they have been giving me and my family. I really don't know what I would do if I didn't have my family, church family and friends to help. Even just asking if there is anything we need is a blessing so THANK YOU.
I will keep you posted on how things are going as I know there will be a huge celebration when that day finally comes when I can keep something down.
Gods blessings and love to all
A.
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